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2005년 3월 I want to know You, no matter WHAT the cost.As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God.
- Psalm 42:1
[Edited (October 31 2005), includes 1 new testimony] Hey guys! How are you all doing? Good I hope. I want to share with you guys 3 testimonies of what God has been doing in my life the past school year as a result of prayer and I hope that you guys will not only be amazed by what God can do, but will truly realize the power of prayer and how it can transform you.
I've known Christianity for nine years. The first eight years, I was in a HUGE doubting stage, because I did not KNOW God. I searched into all the religions and scientific proofs that I could find, looking for answers. WANTING to know the TRUTH because it bugged me so much. I didn't want just blind Faith, I wanted ABSOLUTE solid proof of God's existence. I was involved in fellowships and such, but I didn't know if I was in the right place. This year, I finally prayed "God, if You are out there, SHOW ME YOU. Because I want to know You. And I want to know You, no matter what the cost." And not only did He show me scientific evidences, but I personally experienced God as a result. Before, I was starting to develop a personal relationship with God, but I still doubted, and I'd pray, but doubted my prayers as well because I didn't think they'd work.. until .... Below are some of the testimonies of what happened, others are too personal to share. Thanks to the help of UTCCF, Klove, and many others, I was able to finally come to the realization that I need God and I need to pray, and my life has been SO CHANGED since then.
Testimony 1:
After winter retreat of this February, when I first realized the importance of prayer, I started saying this prayer. "Lord," I said, "I want to know You more. I want to let go of all these strongholds I still hold on to. I want to know You, no matter WHAT the cost." "No matter what the cost?" God asked. "Yes, no matter WHAT the cost."
Around that time, I was getting pretty addicted to MSN (a chatting program) and it really became a stronghold in my life; so a few days after consistently praying this prayer, BOTH of my computers broken down at the same time. It was odd, because they were both working perfectly fine before. My desktop started giving me the "blue screen of death" every time I turned it on. My laptop’s AC adapter refused to supply power to the laptop properly. Only in off mode would it charge up the battery in the laptop and the only way I can use the laptop is by waiting till the battery has power, then turn it on and use it. And it would only charge 2% of the battery per night when the laptop is off, which allowed me to use the computer for about 5 minutes per day only. At first I was frustrated. But remembering my prayer, I said “Lord, have it Your way.” And God gave me peace.
After several weeks of having almost no computer, I came across an assignment that needed to be typed up on the computer and handed in. (The professor wouldn’t allow handwritten assignments). Being last minute, I had to either pray for a miracle or get up at 6 a.m. the next morning and go to school to do it. Knowing that God always provides, I got down on my knees and asked God for help. After I prayed this prayer, I turned on the computer. A couple of minutes later it started up. I expected myself to work quickly because it would run out of battery and shut down pretty soon. Even 10% of battery would be a true miracle, I thought to myself. When I logged in, I checked the battery indicator on my bottom right hand screen: "96% battery remaining." It said. The highest percentage I've seen in WEEKS!! Praise the Lord!! By the time I managed to finish the assignment and printed it out, the battery ran out and the computer was shut down. Later on after five hours of charging I tried to turn on the computer to go on MSN (yes bad me), it refused to turn on, indicating that there's no battery left. I tried again hours later, still nope. God gave me just enough battery power to finish my assignment, not to chat and waste my time.
Testimony 2:
I was born in a family of doctors. Being health-conscious, my family never allowed me to eat anything but healthy food. It got to a point where I was SO SICK of healthy food that I simply stopped eating much of anything. After that, for the past…. 18 years, 3 meals a day, it turned into World War 3 and every meal ended with food being shoved down my throat. Around February when I really started seeking God and before my computers broke down, God started speaking to me about eating through 1 Corinthians 10:31: "Whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.” So after I told God that I wanted to be closer to God no matter what the sacrifice and my computers broke down, all of a sudden, my appetite started increasing A LOT more and I was able to eat for what seemed like the first time in my life.
My family noticed the SIGNIFICANT change immediately. When they asked me what was going on, I told them that God is transforming my life, and they believed. For years they tried everything from giving me acupuncture and medicine to severe punishments in order to make me eat, NOTHING worked. And they were the doctors, the experts on how to increase your appetite. It wasn't that I wanted to be rebellious, I just had no appetite. But all of a sudden, I started to WANT to eat! And then I shared the Gospel with them. I then started to pray consistently for my family for a month. I remember one Saturday; I was down on my knees in tears. "Lord," I said, "I just want my family to know you, because you are the best thing that has ever happened in my life, and my family is not even a part of it, they don't even understand." I was in tears, begging for God to open their hearts and their eyes so that they can see and believe this awesome God. And that was the day that God finally answered my prayer. My family accepted Christ!!!
For nine years as a Christian without prayer, my family did not change. 30 days of prayer, and they accepted Christ!!! 18 years I had NO appetite what-so-ever, my family of doctors tried EVERYTHING to get me to eat, they couldn't. 1 week of prayer with Christ, I was able to eat when I couldn't for 18 years!! These that have known me before can tell you how much healthier I look. My friends, prayer is powerful!!
Testimony 3:
The second semester last school year was one of the most challenging semesters of my life. By March of this year, I was so discouraged that I wanted to either quit or transfer out of electrical engineering at University of Toronto. My average around that time was 20-30%. I was getting 0s on assignments and quizzes because I had no time to study, I was tired, I understood nothing, and I was very, very far behind. And I started asking myself, where IS God in my studies? Am I studying for God’s glory or for my own glory? What I realized was that I was trying to handle things on my own and I was doing things for my own glory. So I started to REALLY SEEK GOD in my school work. Around that time, a brother of mine, Mathias, just accepted Christ. And we and several other friends started meeting up EVERY SINGLE DAY to pray and seek God. But despite all the prayer, my grades did not improve and I started to get VERY frustrated. But God told me that He was still in control. By the end of the school year, God had given me two verses:
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness, so that Christ's power may rest in me. -- 2 Corinthians 12:9
A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you. You will only observe with your eyes. -- Psalm 91:7-8
At the time I thought God made a mistake or something. To pass I needed a 60% average and based on math calculations, there was NO WAY that I could even get a 50% average, but I knew that ALL things were possible through God, even the impossible. When exams came, I studied VERY hard for them, trying to rely on God. But I came out utterly disappointed. I sat through most exams utterly clueless of what was going on. My calculus exam for example, consisted of multiple choice questions each worth 7%. Getting 4 multiple choice questions wrong would have meant failing the course for me.
I was not very thankful during the waiting period for the marks to come out, but God was very faithful. He taught me truly how to TRUST in Him in the unknowns, even when darkness seemed to surround me. When the marks finally came out on Tuesday morning, I prayed for a 50%, I prayed that I would at least repeat the courses instead of being kicked out of U of T altogether. And then I saw my average: 59.8%. It rounded up to a 60%, meaning I was half a percent away from failing. It also meant I passed ALL my courses. I was SOOOOO AMAZED I broke down in tears. Edit: I later on found out that out of the 345 first year students in my second semester classes, 53 people were forced to transfer out of U of T or engineering at least, and approximately 50% of the people failed each course, even after bell-curving, and some failed more than one course. I would've easily been one of these people!!!
I know that hearing testimonies isn’t the same as experiencing them for yourself. And I do pray and hope that you guys realize the importance of prayer and the amazing things God can do, and that you will get a chance to experience them for yourselves. Thank you. 댓글 (4개)
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